Dear Loved Ones,
How are you feeling this week? In the Christian faith many of us celebrated Easter this last Sunday, but I’m not I really sure I feel Easter has happened yet! Things are still quiet, reflective, subdued. So I wait for the Easter feeling to come, trusting in God, staying in the present.
I had a conversation with a friend last week and in response to her question, “How are you?”, I answered “I’m doing OK.” “What makes up your OK these days?” she responded. This question made me think. I’m ok because I’m not sick, I have food in my house and a place to call home. I have people I pray with three times a day, and nature to get out into. I have friends and family I am in touch with and I have a garden that I can get into and plant things in! AND I have some worries about finances and work that have slowed down, a grief around people who are dying, anger at the ways the government has handled (or mishandled) the pandemic, a sadness around trips cancelled and a general concern for how long this is going to last and where it will leave us. SO ok is all I can really manage to be.
I tend to find that my ok changes with the days though. Some days feel easy and good, things get accomplished, my soul feels good. Other days feel like I am slogging through. Everything feels more challenging, tears may come more easily, tiredness settles on my bones. Little, simple objectives loom like huge challenges to push through. And then, then next good day all is well again. I seem to have fallen into a pattern of having a hard day each week, and maybe a few moments on other days.
I mostly turn to do what I know to do. Thankfully the dog always needs a walk! Being outside in nature is an ongoing healing element for me. I pray with my monastery. I pray alone. I paint and sing and turn the computer off. Sometimes I even allow those tears to flow, knowing that I will feel better when they have stopped. And I wait, watching for signs of hope, watching for the helping stories, watching for places where I can be in service, watching for the ways God is inviting me to say yes.
So what makes up your ok these days? And are you ok? How do you cope with the ups and downs of your emotions? And how can I be of support at this time?
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.